July 19, 2011

Manis datang , manis pergi . Tiada pahit cuma manis yang hilang.

Its about two night in a row that i've dreamed bout you .

Well the fact that you already gone , no shadow , no footprint still killin me .

Not much to say because done is done right .

Sekali lagi .. ?

Tak mungkin sekali lagi ..

Bury that friendship away for sake of your love .

Learn to do the hard way just the way you are .

Too much details spoil its all .

But honestly , I spend great time knowing you .

So long sista ~

May happiness always be with you .

June 25, 2011

Mean meaning.

Jar of heart

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?






this song is about a girl would loved a boy with every part of her and he loved her deeply but he didn't fully understand what he had when he was with her, breaking up was the hardest decision she had to make, she could see he felt something for someone else even though he said he still loved her and would deny any feelings for the other girl, but he wanted to see if there was something better and not settle down just yet for he was only so young, so after she had enough of the lies she left him and he chose to purse the other girl, but all the while his first love was on his mind. She was still heart broken and still loved him, but hates what he did to her at the same time. even looking at him brought memories of what they had together, and she felt as though no one could replace what she had with him. a year goes by and throughout the year the boy stays with the other girl but knows it was not anywhere near the magic he had with his first love. he comes back into her life wanting her advice and help with what he should do, wanting his first love to tell him that she still needs him. but she has learnt never to trust him again, she will never let someone throw her away to find something better and then come to the realisation that she was the best he could have ever had and expect her to jump straight back into his arms. he hurt her so deeply that just coming back into her life wont fix it, she wishes she never met him so he could have never hurt her, wishes he didnt have any control over her, and wishes she never fell in love with a liar. who does he think he is coming back into her life after lying and choosing someone else to replace her, it will never work because of all the hurt he caused, all the lies he said and the hate created. the scar will be with her for the rest of her life but its a reminder to her to never let someone steal a part of her again, never to be tricked into believing empty words but mostly it is a reminder to never be tricked by him again. the scar is a learning curve so she can only improve what she has from now on and as soon as there is doubt she will let her heart take over and end it before she gets another gash that should have been prevented from the start.


*a note from blog owner : 

If he is a heartbreaker , what makes you girl , the one who break his heart ? Angel of love or another heartbreaker ? As a human , we make mistake , take things for granted , miscommunication . In the end of the day , we learned . By force or by will , done is done . If there something you want to say , just say it . If it from your mind , educate it . If it from your heart , filter it first . 

June 10, 2011

Mencaci bukan memuji tetapi menguji .

Melahirkan sesuatu perasaan sayang selain kepada ahli keluarga sangatlah magik.
Dan bila beranggapan sesuatu yang indah itu hanya mampu datang dari luar keluarga , memang lah menyesatkan .soal kasih bukan hanya termaktub hubungan antara lelaki dan perempuan , kekasih . Apabila sesuatu hubungan itu perlu dilabel , dengan tujuan menghargai pihak secara kesinambungan. Tanpa sedar menyatakan kita dimiliki atau bagi sesetengah orang memiliki . Sedangkan orang itu yang biasanya memperihalkan hak diri , kini tanpa segan silu , tanpa rujuk akal , awak telah dimiliki. Ada yang memandang sebagai bodoh , hipokrit . Tetapi soal hipokrit tak layak dibincangkan manusia . Bertindak mengikut tekanan , atau bagi yang luas kosakata nya , mengikut peradaran masa . Mengapa senang untuk mengatakan aku tidak hipokrit , kalau hidup memang tak tengok cermin inilah jadinya . Atau dengan kata yang lebih manis selami jiwa dan hati budi sendiri . Adakah ikhlas itu dikira ikhlas atau sekadar salah satu perkataan yang baik2. Ikhlas bermula dari paksaan ?atau paksaan lalu ikhlas ? Mana satu yang datang dahulu ? Memaksa adalah semudah tuturnya, pada dasarnya di maniskan dengan perkataan tolong ataupun yang lebih klasik kita mungkin terbiasa guna bolehkah ? Pada zaman yang serba moden ini jarang benar di sorok perlakuan ikhlas . Bukan lagi dianggap sebagai bahan bukti di akhirat tetapi juga untuk menaikkan darjat duniawi. Bagi yang negatif orangnya lancang lidah menuturkan benci pada segelintir golongan yang menghebohkan berita keikhlasannya atau mungkin dihebohkan. Kekadang terfikir hebat benar si polan yang membenci , kerana luarbiasa bagi menilai keikhlasan seseorang. Rambut hitam lain hati hitam lain . Berasaskan apa aku menulis ? bukan lah ilmiah jika dianggap merepek. Kalau kaca di dalam permata sudah tentu dikata gila. Tapi mana kau tahu bezanya itu andai engkau bukan jauhari . Beranggapan ilmu seluas lautan tetapi baldi mencedok kelihatan hina, apa benar semua ilmunya sia- sia ? Dilihat pada cermin hodohnya dia , dilhat pada matahari panasnya menikam , dilihat pada bulan yang berkawah-kawah. Mampu membenci belum pasti mampu melepaskan pergi. Cela bukan untuk tatapan dunia, dunia cuba menghukum tetapi andai semuanya dalam hati , itu tanggungjawab sendiri. Kamu yang mendengar seakan mengasihani dari riaknya, tetapi hatinya? Biar tak tersurat kerana masanya belum tiba. Biar ada yang terlewat kerna mungkin itu hikmahnya .







Dilihat pada dinding yang penuh contengan , lalu berkata , dahulu lesu ku lihat dinding ini , kini terasa ingin ku cemuh segala yg terlekat di sini . 

May 29, 2011

apa nak buat ?

HAHA apa nak buat kan ?
terdongak dongak leher nak menengoknye.
(benciii aku !)
lalalalalalallalalalala~

senyum macam kambing lah kau.
ehh tak ! macam *____________* . taknak cakap taknak cakap.
ehhh, welcome home lah.
perlu di make up make up ni.
penuh sarang labah labah dah ni. boleh bersin lah pir.
HAHA

oke wait haa~